Lights, Camera, Action!

2011-03-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

“I am holding on to the belief that if we’re meant to be, someday, you’ll come to me and we’ll be together forever and ever”

2010-11-15T11:48:00.000+08:00

I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do.

2010-10-14T23:07:00.001+08:00

I really really really want to keep this page alive.
But.... I don't know what to post!

So how? :(

Withdrawal Symptoms

2010-09-21T10:13:00.003+08:00

First day of SIP started yesterday but let me rewind back to 2 days ago, my last day at JL.

When I first came, I was displeased with many things/people there. I wanted to end things off quickly and get this job over and done with. But as time passed, I begin to appreciate the people and things around me. I love my colleagues, security guards, cleaners and other promoters.

One month definitely flew like a breeze. Even though I was only there for a mere one month, I couldn't bear to leave. I was sad and unhappy that I was gonna leave my comfort zone and start anew somewhere else. But there was nothing I could do. I had no choice.

On my last day, I talked to one of the Bedlinen promoters and told her how sad I was about leaving. She told me not to be and that I could come back anytime when I'm done with what I'm supposed to do. Jam bought farewell gifts for me and Mala gave me an Angbao. That was totally unexpected. MUS promoter surprised me with a farewell gift during the last minutes of my time there.

No more "ti, ti, ti, ti, ti, ti".
No more "sayang".
No more gossiping with Jam about our "friend".

I will remember how when we pass by each other, we will smile and exchange a couple of words at times. You all left a deep impression in my heart.

Such sweethearts, will remain in my heart.

2010-09-12T00:56:00.001+08:00

I was upset and confused as to why Kenn always talks to Ker and not me.
Disappointed, I walked over to Aunty Jeslyn and asked if I looked unfriendly/scary.
She asked why and I told her that Kenn don't talk to me.
I then asked why won't he talk to me?

Her answer made my day ^^

So Kenn, it's alright if you don't talk to me. I understand.

2010-09-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

Please understand that I am very very tired.
Please have mercy on me.
Please be lenient on me tomorrow.
I deeply apologize for my lazyness.

Amin.

2010-08-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

You know what???????
Everything is a lie....

2010-07-31T00:42:00.004+08:00

Lazy Friday night.....
Thanks bestie for coming all the way to TPY for me again!
Helped me satisfy my weird cravings for ice cream and watermelon!
But, I still want to eat watermelon ):

Weather has been so nice and comfortable lately.
I just want to lie under my warm blanket and not go anywhere.

My bed's calling out for me now, goodnight!

2010-07-27T21:58:00.002+08:00

IMR Presentation tomorrow!
So nerve-wrecking...................
But to someone like me, everything is also nerve-wrecking.

One more submission to go and we're done for the semester!
[there's still endsem and main papers, but that's handle-able to me]

Time to pop champagne.

2010-07-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

I WANNA DYE MY HAIR SO BADLY.
THE COLOUR'S SO DULL AND FADED RIGHT NOW.

):

p/s: i have a girl crush on Victoria in addition to Bommie :D

2010-07-16T21:00:00.005+08:00

I think I look pretty in pictures today.
Plus, it's a good hair day :>

Sorry if you think I'm disgusting.

2010-07-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

I KNOW I AM BEING MADE USE OF.....
BUT WHY AM I ALLOWING THIS TO HAPPEN.......
SO STUPID RIGHT?

nvm, i shall not whine but just accept the fact the people are making use of me.

2010-07-14T21:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO ME.

mandy's got her driver's license. congrats!
i want to drive before i turn 21.

Seob's Staring At Me. TYVM.

2010-05-25T18:45:00.002+08:00

Make me happy and I'll be happy for the next three days.
Make me sad and I'll remember it for the rest of my life.

Please, ttm and I'll be happy for the whole week.

Rainism

2010-05-16T19:37:00.002+08:00

Some random things I need to let out of my chest.

I'm feeling a little uncomfortable, my chest's stuffy.
I'm not ill, I'm just feeling the pressure.
I have lots of things on my mind.
People are selfish, they only think of themselves.
I think I am an animal because I'm not like that.
As I'm typing these, I feel like crying.
In fact, I just shed a tear.
Before I start crying like mad, I'll take my leave.

2010-05-11T16:22:00.001+08:00

All the good guys in the world are either:

1. Taken
2. Gay

People

2010-04-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

Humans......
They say one thing but mean another.

I'm a human too.

Fool.

2010-03-30T00:31:00.002+08:00

It all started 4-5 weeks back.
Said you'll call, I waited.
You didn't, I called.
Said next week, I believed.
No news next week, I called.
Said next week again, I waited.
No news again next week, I called.
Said tomorrow, I believed again.
Tomorrow, no calls, no nothing, so I called.
Said on Monday, I waited again.
Nothing on Monday.

When will this ever end???

I wish.......

2010-03-05T15:58:00.001+08:00

I'm packing my bags, I'm leaving this town.
Leaving all the bad memories behind.
I'm never looking back again.
Don't ever look for me.

2010-03-01T23:27:00.004+08:00

Don't believe what you see,
It's hurting so badly inside.
Why can't anyone see it?

X

2010-02-22T20:48:00.001+08:00

Today, Tomorrow and for the rest of the days,
I just feel like scolding myself.

goodbye.

For you.

2010-01-01T18:04:00.003+08:00

Last year, I was good. And I was bad.
I made people upset, picked a fight over small matter, made people cry, lied, cursed, I was selfish.
I laughed, smiled, cried, loved, and hated.
I'm flawed, I'm not perfect, that's me.

This year, i'll continue to be who i am.
If I was perfect, life wouldn't be perfect anymore.

Happy New Year.
Happy Birthday Sungmin.

Time To Love

2009-10-05T21:47:00.003+08:00

Good person, you're the first love to me
The person who taught me love
Never forget you, I'll remember you
I remember only you

Perhaps I'll see you, so I'm wearing the clothes you bought me
And I cut my hair short like you used to like it
To pass by the way I used to walk with you
I went round the long way thinking maybe you'd be there
My phone number is still unchanged
Thinking maybe you'll look for me, my house is the same
In my minihompy I just have the songs we used to listen to together
Thinking maybe you'll look and you'll come back again

We still can't forget
We still want each other
We're still in love
Separated, honestly I miss you
I miss you like crazy
I'll wait for you no matter what
I'll wait for you till the end
I stop to think, I'm standing still

Thinking that maybe I'll see you, and if I see you my heart will tremble
Thinking that my heart will sink and you'll see me dry and wrenched
To avoid the way I used to walk with you
I went round the long way thinking maybe you'd be there
I already changed my phone number
Maybe I will keep thinking of you so I moved houses
But in my mouth there are still words unsaid
Thinking maybe you'll look and you'll come back again

I want to tell you to start again
But I can't hear you nor see you even though I am looking for you

Soaked by the pouring rain
I'm going to the place where we first met
I feel so pathetic
There's still a warm spot in my heart for you
You can bear it
Therefore I will be able to bear too
But it will be so hard
Even though I tried really hard, I can't help it

Thinking that perhaps I'll see you by chance
And you will look at me
In front of the mirror I wipe my tears
Thinking maybe you will come to me

CREDITS

2009-09-12T22:30:00.003+08:00

Do you love me?
Do you love me?

Heartbreaker

2009-08-17T00:12:00.003+08:00

I literally laughed out loud while watching this.
It started with Rain tearing while saying
"I'm a bad guy. My girl, my friends, the memories.. I lost them all"
But there's a little twist in the story. Watch it, I don't wanna be a spoiler.
Rain's reaction is cute + priceless.

Blond GD = Hotness. I like!

Credits: Popseoul

2009-08-16T03:25:00.002+08:00

I shall speak no more.

Empty talk

2009-08-04T21:41:00.002+08:00

Kyujong's looking better than ever.August's Birthday Boys

SS501's magnae, Kim Hyung Joon [3rd August, 22]

Kyujong, Hyungjun and Hyunjung have almost the exact same hairstyle.
The only difference is that Hyungjun's sidepart is to his left while the other two, to their right.
Kyujong's looking better than ever.
Jungmin's bangs are super cute.
Check them out here.

Big Bang's G-Dragon [18th August, 21]

I seriously liked the half-Mohawk on Jiyong.
Maybe I can treat him to a haircut for his birthday....

Super Junior's Kibum [21 August, 22]

Damn cute.
I especially liked his intellectual high-school-er look in PUB.
There's no doubt that the old Kibum look like Kimbum.
Even the names sound alike.
Could they be... long lost brothers?

And not forgetting.....

Super Junior's Yesung [24 August, 25]

One of Super Junior's dorks.
I think he's quite like me... In terms of our thick-skinness. Hahaha

I can finally concentrate on MR now, I think.

Hahahaha, so no one can sneer at me.

2009-07-30T23:53:00.005+08:00

When I think of the screwed-up presentation on Wednesday, I still feel sore.
But there's nothing I can do about it, so just move on.

On a brighter note, impromptu meeting with BFF today.
She suddenly wanted to meet me cause she missed me too much.
So I decided to bus down to Bugis because I didn't want to wait for her to travel all the way from Yio Chu Kang to Tampines.

Oh by the way, my BFF is well-known among my friends.
They instantly recognised her when I brought her to school the other day.
Like some superstar siol.
I got "Ehhhh is she Dawn?" & "Omgggg is that Dawn?!" kind of responses.

Went berserk and took hundreds of pix with my 2.0 MP Sony Ericsson Z610i
(don't look down on this little device k)

there's actually a three-quarter moon and an eagle. hehe

yogurt, tempura sushi, honey milk tea on the sidewalk. short but fulfilling time with her.
i think i look damn pretty today and my hair is damn nice (in fact, every day also pretty!) therefore my camwhore mood. haha sorry ah, just kidding. no offence to all pretty girls out there. please don't throw rotten vegetables or eggs or paint at me if you see me out there.

and on a sad note,

I can only upgrade my line in November and not September :(
10-6 again tmrw :(
both my siblings left me all alone on a Thursday night after scaring me :(
apologies for not having a comment box/tagboard for you to communicate with me :(

k whatever, bye!

if only it was true.

2009-07-19T03:19:00.002+08:00

the only thing that made me happy today.....

sorry ah, i'm crazy/hopeless like that!

Happenings

2009-07-19T02:06:00.002+08:00

i found out that guys tend to be much more sensitive than girls
i found out that guys tend to have more moodswings than girls (though they do not menstruate)
i found out that i have weird, really weird sleeping habits through my sister
i found out that other than weird sleeping habits, i have other weird bad habits :/

k enough of the i-found-out(s), i've got a truckload of work waiting for me :/

2009-07-18T01:38:00.004+08:00

my thumbdrive screwed up again, causing me to restart my laptop like 3 times!
so i'm gonna crush it into thousand of pieces.

fridays are always tiring.

dinner with shuni, flooded with other with weird talks again.
and i found out something today.
Chong Shuni's 1st impression of me : SUPER DAO

haha, i've always thought that i give people good 1st impressions but doesn't seem like it.
and first impressions aren't always accurate uh.

i've got a lot of videos ready to be converted and put in my psp BUT my mmc doesn't have any space left :/ i think i need to get the 8gb mmc.

To a sweeter eighteenth.

2009-07-14T21:13:00.004+08:00

First and foremost, I would like to thank everyone for the birthday wishes.
Dawnbabe, thanks for the spending my birthday with me, for trying to plan a surprise for me although it failed. nice try though. to make you feel better, I'm glad it failed okay? better now?
Thanks Mandy, Junen, Minghui and Eric for the perfume. Seriously damn nice! I like! Now, I can seduce any men I want to seduce with that fragrance haha.
Thanks Branda, Azie and Mich for that little surprise.
So yea, thanks everyone.

Too Hot To Handle.
The following images might not be suitable for the faint-heart.

looking at me once more, locking our gazes, hold me once more, locking our lips, once more, once more, look at me, look at me, me, me ......

Sorry ah, a little consolation for myself for being so smart.

Too smart and lucky that I need to do my MR and FARM(again) :/
Bye!

I got the dates mixed up!

2009-07-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

thanks to Junen for telling me that HC's birthday is today (10/7) instead of 3/7.
uh so embarrassing :/

happy birthday pretty boy heechul!
seriously, i love heebum. i think heebum's the most beautiful cat i've ever seen.
i was laughing at it cause it looks alien-ish and fake to me even till now, but still, there's this beautiful side of it that i cannot explain.

omg so cuteeeeee!

2009-07-09T00:04:00.002+08:00

omggggg why am i feeling so down?

I'm not a student, I'm a fangirl.

2009-07-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

Happy 20th Kim Bum, your smile never fail to melt my heart every time.
Just like Shy's. (:

Ooh you look a lot, A LOT like SJ's Kim Ki Bum (:

Don't look back and leave.

2009-07-03T23:42:00.002+08:00

I miss the cute Seungri and the old Jiyong.
They all looked superb during Haru Haru promos last year.
Seungri looked so cute and Jiyong's hair looked like Sungmin's from ''Don't Don'' period.
Top is the only one who never changed. Still as hot as ever.

Part 2 (of I'm happy today)

2009-07-03T21:35:00.003+08:00

because... i ran into long-lost ex-teammate/bitch/girlfriend lun weishi!
i was hysterical when i saw her cos the last i saw her physically was like 2 years ago??!!

and, just because.....

I'm happy today because.....

2009-07-03T00:51:00.004+08:00

i've been slogging the whole day today.
i've finally completed my BOE proposal!
i'm getting something big for myself! hopefully.

follow, follow me.

2009-07-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

today is the old idol/the angel who lost his wings' birthday.
hahaha happy birthday!

june's come and gone in a flash uh.

2009-06-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

Stuff that's irritating the shit out of me right now:

Clubbox fucking cheated me, cheated my feelings!
My red dye's faded only after 2 weeks!
I've got no motivation to study or do anything!
I want to have both long and short hair. Can I? Can I?

Come in come in come in.

2009-06-27T23:28:00.005+08:00

Must share!

So cute! Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Yesung, Nichkhun, Jay, Taecyeon, Key, Jo Kwon and Shindong! But I guess one person who suits this song the most (someone else besides Jo Kwon) is missing. He's none other than Kim Heechul!

Somehow, I find that Jay, Taec and Nich is too manly for this.

Sungmin seems to be really enjoying himself though he's injured! Awww. I learnt that MB's first half of the year special episode was total chaos though performances were awesome!

I love the hype during Suju's Goodbye Stage for MB. Sungmin was really cute standing at the side of the stage and dancing by himself. Aww.

I'm Sungmin-fied. Hahaha.

I've got the masterkey.

2009-06-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

i saw a freaking huge lizard behind the speakers ):
i hate menses ):):
i am so in love with the After School girls (:
the first person i saw when i left RBB classroom was mandyteo (:(:
a couple of my old friends suddenly talked to me, which is very heart-warming cause i'm still on their minds and they miss me (:(:(:
kyle smiled and waved at me just now (:(:(:(:
life is so wonderful, there's not much reason for me to be unhappy (:(:(:(:(:

Fire

2009-06-22T22:49:00.007+08:00

yesterday was ryeowook's birthday
skipped school today
went over to bff's with macs breakfast
bff's turn to compliment my hair today
took a whole bunch of nonsense pic
watched a bit of TV in the bedroom, super shiok and comfy
caught Windstruck which I think only 5% of the part is touching
watched SJ mini drama, laughed like mad
trained home
I WANT TO CUT MY HAIR SHORTER!!!

More photos to be up soon. Photobucket's lagging.

Now I can't even escape.

2009-06-18T21:31:00.004+08:00

He's back, hotter than ever.
Catch his solo collection teaser here

Hmmmm maybe I should change my url to kpopzone or popsinseoul instead of bestsellingsecrets since I think I update more about these hunks than my own life.

Hahaha nah, I'm just kidding.

Well... The picture in my previous post still cracks me up. Cute Sungmin and Ryeowook!

Shorty shorty shorty shorty

2009-06-17T23:30:00.003+08:00

HAHA
I think this is cute and funny!
Just by looking at the way they sit, you can tell that Siwon and Leeteuk are WAY taller than my two favourite shorties.
(observe the distance between the floor and their legs)

Damn cute!
<3 Sungmin.

Make it a better place.

2009-06-17T20:56:00.003+08:00

For the past 12 days or so, youtube has been a very faithful friend to me who's stayed by my side 24/7. Always there when I need someone.

Not forgetting my TV as well.
I wonder how I would survive without these two buddies.

Check out Nikhun's version of (breathless) 'Sorry Sorry' here.
Damn cute.

Oh and how can I forget Branda and Dawn?
Doesn't matter that I had a bad scare when I was down with flu and sore throat for five days after coming back from swimming with B.

And being able to see Dawn's face after so long is definitely comforting as well.
For details, check metal-queens out!
Don't listen to what she says about me. She's always out to embarrass me!
Can't wait to see you next Monday babe!

I'm contemplating if I should go for class on Monday or not.
Because.... I only have 2 hour lecture.

The world is small.

2009-06-15T01:02:00.001+08:00

Very small.

I found out that my bq partner, Ryan, lives in the same neighbourhood as me.
I bumped into Michelle and Amy at Kallang MRT bus stop just now.

It was nice seeing them though although I was in the bus and they were outside. The last time I saw them was.... Post X-mas party? Yea, in 2008!

How time flies!

Random Thoughts

2009-06-12T21:30:00.005+08:00

5th June 09
Redhead! Redhead!
Can't wait!

6th June 09
Heechul "Celebs usually don't lie on TV. Really. Have you seen me saying that I was ugly?"
JUST LIKE ME.
I LIKE.

9th June 09
Sungmin ♥ x258

10th June 09
Ryeowook looks so cute in his new haircut! Makes him look five years younger!
Cute cute, I like!

12th June 09, 5:05PM
I feel so weak and dizzy I thought I was gonna die.....
I have only been sick for 2 days yet I feel that I've lost all my radiance. HAHA.
My new table fan looks like an alien. hehehe =D

Sungmin is heartbroken.

2009-06-09T14:15:00.005+08:00

"when you tell me you love me thousands and millions of times,
my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out"

The Power of Bullshit.

2009-06-04T20:37:00.003+08:00

Seunggi oh Seunggi! Damn hardcore!
One of the reasons why I cannot miss an episode of 2D1N :D
Later that night, Seunggi said "I don't usually sing like that"

A hundred thousand things to do.

2009-06-02T20:12:00.007+08:00

June!

Macs with B. Doublecheeseburger without cheese please.
A very close encounter with a bird. Yes, bird.

Because I didn't want to stay late, B said she will stay till 8/9 on her own to study.
HAHA LIKE I WILL BELIEVE HER.
and true enough, she left with me at 5.

A cheapo but lovely note from her to me.

Quiz Expedition. Music Bank. 2PM. Super Junior. Evan. Likeable or not. Really made my day today.
Crazy I know.

For these coming 2-week break, I'm going to finish up on:

Good Daddy
Exploration of Human Body
Suju Full House
Love letter

And I have a whole list of things to do as well (:

Ohoh I think I should just acknowledge Kyle whenever I see him around because he still remembers me! Kyle's an eyecandy to me. He looks like a Korean idol with his hair and smile like that :D

I must have been crazy

2009-05-29T20:17:00.004+08:00

DAMN STRESSED
DAMN HUNGRYYYY

goodbye.

Struggle of my heart and mind.

2009-05-28T01:33:00.001+08:00

HELLO ONCE AGAIN!

I think you've seen this girl here so many times already that you feel like puking blood right now.
Right, right?

Hehehe I think I'm suffering from binge-blogging. You know? Like you haven't blogged for super long time then suddenly you want to blog and you post many entries within a span of three hours? K nevermind, I'm talking nonsense here again.

waaaaaa super hungryyyyyyy :(

Again and Again

2009-05-27T22:55:00.003+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday smellygirl!
It's a little too late, but I hope it's alright.
Hope you'll enjoy your birthday and be happy always.
Sorry for not being a good friend to you.
For not contacting you.
Always remember, you'll always be my #1 and bestest junior in SHS
Love you.

both of us look ugly here, but anyway, who cares!

As if I've got all the time in the world

2009-05-27T22:43:00.003+08:00

HELLO.

I suck. Because I forgot to save my old template again. Which means... My Haloscan code is gone. Goodbye!

And I don't want to go back to Haloscan to retrieve it because I suck. In addition, I'm stupid.

I want to watch 2D1N already.
Annyeong!

See you after the show k!

No more words, kiss me goodbye.

2009-05-19T21:12:00.004+08:00

I'm seriously sick of people who has a sudden change of mood. So unfathomable. Like the weather. No, even weather forecasters are able to predict the weather. Like, like, i don't know what. Outside, at home, everywhere. I've had enough of it, seriously. Crazy or what?

To make matters worse for me, I was feeling hot and cold throughout the day. One moment I was either shivering in the freezing cold lab/tutorial room/lecture theaters and another moment I was perspiring like hell. At the end of the hell day, even though the sun was scorching hot, I was shivering, I could feel the goosebumps on my arms and neck while waiting for the bus.

Now, my nose's slightly runny and I've got a headache :/

I think the picture up there is damn ugly but I don't give a damn anymore. Ugly then ugly, so what? Damn tiring, strenuous and time-consuming.

K putting shit aside....

I'm bringing sexy back

I think this pose is damn hot and sexy. HAHA.

I don't know

2009-05-17T18:15:00.004+08:00

So what if Han Kyung's from China? HE'S HOT!

HAHAHA

Insecurities.

2009-05-14T01:26:00.001+08:00

I don't want to be judged as someone I'm not.

Dynamite.

2009-05-10T01:53:00.002+08:00

my thoughts are racing all over my mind, then to my body and to my throat. right now, i feel like i'm choking with words. i can't spit them out nor swallow them.

Like a puzzle, we don't know where to start.

2009-05-09T22:47:00.001+08:00

there should never be a plan or there'll be no surprises in life

TOO LATE FOR REGRETS!

2009-05-03T23:37:00.003+08:00

I HAVE BEEN THINKING AND FRETTING OVER A COUPLE OF ISSUES SINCE THIS AFTERNOON THAT I CANNOT EVEN CONCENTRATE AT WORK (not that my work requires a lot of concentration)

RIGHT NOW, THERE'S ANOTHER FUCKING ISSUE ON HAND. I ALREADY HAD A BAD DAY AT WORK YET SOMETHING ELSE HAD TO HAPPEN TO DAMPEN MY ALREADY SUCKY MOOD.

WHILE I'M IN THIS STATE OF MIND,

I FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF
I AM SORRY TO M
I FEEL VERY SORE
I FEEL FULL OF REGRETS
P SHOULD HAVE JUST SHUT HER MOUTH AND TOLD ME NOTHING (k i'm so sorry)
I AM GOING CRAZY

I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WANT/WHAT I'M UP TO. PUTTING THE BLAME ON OTHERS WON'T WORK. I WAS THE ONE WHO MADE THE DECISION AND IF THERE'S ANYONE TO BLAME, IT SHOULD BE ME AND NO ONE ELSE.

I THOUGHT THIS WOULD BE BETTER FOR ME. JUST WHEN I'VE PICKED MYSELF UP AGAIN, THIS HAD TO HAPPEN AND HERE I AM FALLING EVEN HARDER THAN BEFORE. THIS TIME, IT HURTS, MORE THAN EVER. SHIT.

STUPID!

I THINK I AM REALLY USELESS FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO SPEAK UP AND JUSTIFY MYSELF. BY JUST KEEPING QUIET AND NOT DOING ANYTHING, IT'S ALMOST THE SAME AS ADMITTING THAT I'M A DOG/A PET. FUCK. HOW USELESS IS THAT.

USELESS!

WHILE I'M NOT IN THE BEST OF MOOD, SOMEONE JUST HAD TO PICK A FIGHT WITH ME BY SWITCHING OFF THE LIGHTS WHEN I AM USING IT. WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE SUCH A BRAINLESS USELESS PIECE OF SHITTY JERK. YOU SHOULD SERIOUSLY GO TO HELL YOU'RE SERIOUSLY OF NO USE LIVING YOU'RE BETTER OFF DEAD. IT'S ONLY LIKE 10PM WHAT THE FUCK. WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I WANNA SLEEP AT 2/3AM YOU SWITCH ON THE LIGHTS AND READ YOUR BLOODY MOTHERFUCKING NEWSPAPERS AND WHEN I WAS DOING MY STUFF YOU WENT AHEAD TO SWITCH THE LIGHTS OFF FUCK FUCK FUCK GO TO HELL! WHERE THE HELL DID YOUR BRAIN GO TO? DID THE DRUGS EAT IT UP OR DID YOU LEFT IT IN THE TOILET BOWL? THE RUBBISH BIN? OR YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE ONE IN THE FIRST PLACE?

I WANT TO CRY ALREADY.
I WANT TO RUN FAR FAR AWAY.

!@$@#$^$%&%^*

2009-05-03T17:02:00.004+08:00

Fuck, I ruined my chances again.
Fuck.

:(

It's okay, I'll get over it somehow. I think.

Fighters

2009-04-19T23:22:00.003+08:00

GUESS WHO'S BACK.....

SS501!
Woah Hyun Joong looks damn shagged. That's why he collapsed during this photoshoot.

It's good to see all 5 of them together once again and I cannot wait for their comeback in July. I think it's gonna be the best birthday present for me. Right, right.

Celebrated my sis's 23rd at Lau Par Sat. Damn, the food sucks to the core. And my camera damn spoiler. What a time to break down(?)! How many times in a year do you get to be exactly 23?! K, I know I'm talking nonsense. Bye.

Why I Like You

2009-04-17T03:27:00.000+08:00

I am amazed by how some people can easily sleep as soon as they lay their head on the pillow

Met Dawn on Wednesday for an advanced birthday celebration for her. Picnic cum chit-chat cum camwhoring session at ECP. Intended to catch sunset initially BUT we chose a wrong spot! Was blocked by all the green trees.

BIRTHDAY GIRL WITH HER SURPRISES!

Dawn says I'm sweeter the cake -blush-

Awww, how can I ever be cuter than a strawberry shortcake? The cake was kinda messed up when we reached ECP cause I kept in my bag for about an hour and a half while waiting for the queen and shopping for our stuff.

Visuals before we went to Mac's for toilet break

After we've moved

The sky was damn beautiful, as always.
Alternatively, you can go HERE for more pictures or updates.

Anyway, I hate Tuesday's lesson plan! Imagine 9am all the way to 7pm!

Yay, finally done with blogging! I started two and a half hours ago and ended only now! Now, I am super tired and warm. I shall have my nap :) Goooodnight!

Fatal Attraction

2009-04-13T00:57:00.003+08:00

You smell awesome.....

I think:

I am real a loser
I have a serious mental problem
I am too paranoid
There's really something wrong with me

I am a happy girl because I bought 2 new cushions for myself :D

Something happened to my heart

2009-04-11T01:33:00.005+08:00

Death Bell made me nauseous! I watched the whole show and felt like throwing up almost throughout the show. I'm still feeling nauseous now I think I can vomit my guts out. Trust my nine-year-old sister to recommend such a movie to me. I wonder how she managed to endure throughout the one hour and a half.

I'm not afraid of ghosts in movies but blood and gore scares the shit out of me.

On top of feeling nauseous to the max, I am totally drained off all my energy
Ugh, what a way to end my day :(

Because we are too stupid.

2009-04-09T00:34:00.003+08:00

When breathing seems almost impossible, you don't even wanna try.

Past few days have been depressing. I can sense the bleak days ahead of me.
I am emotionally and mentally disturbed and traumatized by what I see and hear.

Peace?
How can world peace ever be achieved when you cant even have peace among the people around you?

I don't even know what I want now.

Break.

2009-04-05T02:19:00.006+08:00

I watched 'Break' just now and it was a total waste of my 2 hours! It's damn senseless and boring!

I'm feeling extremely exhausted and for the first time in 210934732 years, I'm gonna sleep before 3AM! My brother's gonna be damn shocked when he gets home and sees me half-dead hahaha. Goodnight!

Park Jungmin.

2009-04-03T03:27:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite boys.

Today is Jungmin's 22nd birthday. Aww Jungmin's so cuteee! I love the way he yells "omma!" each time the rest gang up together to bully or disturb him and whenever he randomly shouts like a girl.

Jungmin's very cute, charming and good-looking and has got a pretty and mesmerising pair of eyes. My bad, I can't seem to find nicer photos of him :( Seriously, no offence to Hyun Joong's fans but I think he's damn overated! Even though I typed 'SS501's Park Jung Min' in the search engine, his face also come out! Not one, not two, but even more than Jungmin's face!

I'm tired now plus I'm working tomorrow but I promise myself to look for other photos and upload them here :)

A song calling for you

2009-03-30T23:03:00.006+08:00

Please, feel free to click to enlarge.

Blue-coloured regions represents working, grey schooling, orange birthdays, white nothing. I'm trying to fit some dates into the white regions. Help me out? Preferably 3rd week of April? Between 12th to 16th? Best if you leave my Mondays and Tuesdays out. Top priority is prawning, Branda/Ziezie and picnic with Dawn.

I'll leave you guys with a super hot photo of Kyu Jong. Ready?

Take a deep breath
.
.
.

Did your nose just bleed?

Looking at the sad light that is you

2009-03-30T04:49:00.000+08:00

Good Morning!

I'm so tangled up with SGB and etcetera that I've been refusing to sleep every night. Ah, this senseless K variety shows. Senseless, but I like! I must be a saint or something. Sleeping at 5-ish/6-ish every morning and waking up even before 12 on the same day. It's like as if I'm some superstar with a super tight schedule or something but I'm not!

It's gonna be tough changing this routine once school starts :/ Ohoh, I hope lessons will end early on Mondays and Tuesdays as I do not want it to clash with MB and SGB.

And I realize the ratio of my face appearing on the pictures to sylvia's was 4:1. Therefore I shall not post anymore. Ohmy, I feel like a hardcore camwhore.

So, for the past few days I have been rotting at home, either watching TV, taking catnaps or playing PES in the day, Youtubing at night, laughing at the top of my lungs in the middle of the morning like a madwoman, yea.

I am feeling bad as well cause I've been neglecting my all time favourite Big Bang for SS501. I can swear it's not because of Yoon Ji Hoo (Hyun Joong) because he's the member I like least. Park Jung Min, Kim Hyung Jun and Kim Kyu Jong FTW! I sound like a lunatic fangirl here. Okay, I'll touch on this topic again some other time :)

I think my current state of living is pathetic. I have turned into a lunatic overnight :(

I'm still not sleepy so I shall go for a run.

Slurpee, Sugarcane, Seafood, Sea, Sunset, Sand.

2009-03-24T02:13:00.001+08:00

Image heavy!

22ND MARCH 09:
DATE WITH MANDY TEO!
p/s: she won a hot date with me in a lucky draw
(if you believe hehe)

Highlight of the day was to eat and catch the sunset. We took 50minutes to get to the Food Centre from Parkway. Gave up walking halfway and took a bus there. Thanks to Mandy's experience, the food centre was indeed, very very far away! Imagine if we were to walk all the way, we would have reached at 7 and perhaps missed the sunset.

It wasn't awkward for both of us at all because we have so many similarities and we have a lot to talk about. From the moment I met her, I kept telling her about SS501 and the variety shows I watched over the past few days while we were trying to find the underpass. I couldn't stop talking! Hehehe. Oh ya, her eyes are almost the same size as mine, small. Same-sized-eye friend!

I can still taste the squid in my mouth till now. Seafood plus Sugarcane = Heaven!

Omg we're like lunatic fangirls. Crazy about all these Big Bang, DBSK, BOF, SS501, Junsu, Hyung Jun, Ji Hoo, Kim Bum and such. I'll watch more DBSK vids too and we can have more things to tell each other! ;]

Self-timer shots!

Attempts to take the beautiful shots of the waves behind us.

The waves are beautiful, aren't they?

The sky was beautiful as well.

Mandy says this plane is going to Sengkang.

Picture of the day goes to the one taken in the tunnel.

My Sunday was well-spent and enjoyable. Thanks for the wonderful time Mandy. Come take part in the next lucky draw, if you wanna win a date with me again. Either that or take a queue number okay? Hahaha. Have a safe trip to Shenzhen and come back soon!

<3

You're already gone but your smell lingers

2009-03-19T01:06:00.007+08:00

Good food plus good company.
Well-spent Tuesday :)

A not so typical day out with my girlfriend. We both were walking around Downtown aimlessly and eventually we ended up at the beach. Not enjoying the scenery, just sitting down, talking nonsense and doing what girls are best at :)

Hello Gf, digging for things from the front pocket of my jumper isn't gross okay!

Because I like it this way.

2009-03-18T03:17:00.000+08:00

Putting down the phone again
Keeping the bouquet of flowers in my heart
The letter that I wrote through the whole night was dampened by the rain
I opened the window to see again
I shouted your name
Listening to the ringing tone with no response at the rim of my ear

I'm at the streets wandering about again
Don't know where I've been
Perhaps you will show up again
Maybe in my dreams, you will smile and rejoice
Maybe you're coming to find me again

Because you're too stupid.

2009-03-14T03:20:00.003+08:00

i am laughing too much all by myself at such an unearthly hour (3AM hellooo!) from watching Korean variety programs such as Happy Shares Company, Family Outing, Miraculous Victory & Defeat and Star King.

aww is there any way that i could get channel SBS? :/

ohohoh, and guess who i saw in bus 175 just now! :D
-BIG GRIN-

Only dusts are piled up on my mind.

2009-03-11T02:22:00.002+08:00

Recently, while flipping through the pages of 8 Days magazine, I chanced upon a TVBI drama entitled "Best Selling Secrets". A drama named after my blog? Woah, cool. Or is my blog named after the drama? Hmmm. Whatever it is, it is purely coincidental.

Saturday out with Dawn the dumb. I forgot what we did but it was raining, and we walked a lot. A lot. And i mean A LOT. As usual, I made her take bus with me till my busstop and we talked cock. A few 21s came but eventually, she decided to walk back to the MRT station and train home instead because the sky was getting dark.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++

8th March 09
Branda: Omg you know i am watching ep7 of BOF already! Not nice lor. Damn boring. I will give you another chance and watch a few more episodes tmrw. The F4 leader damn ugly!

9th March 09
Branda: I am at ep14 already. Not nice lor! Damn boring.

10th March 09
Branda: I am at ep17 already. Waiting for 18. Jihoo damn charming! I like Jun Pyo and the pottery guy too. All so gd-looking. Koreans all damn good looking!

Look at how fast she changes her mind! First she said that Jun Pyo's damn ugly and the show's damn boring. Now, she said Jun Pyo's good looking and she cannot wait for the next episode. Miss you monster! Oh and jfyi, i am dying to catch episode 18 too!

Met up with 4H girls this afternoon. My lovely Tsz Kei included! Went all the way to Tampines just to see your cute face, you know! How often do I get to see her? Once in two blue moons i guess.

Do not remind me that my hair colour's fading! The thought of it....... upsets me! :(

Falling hard.

2009-03-08T02:43:00.004+08:00

"I learnt how to swim because I thought it'd be easier to face drowning rather than watch another guy save you from drowning"

awwwwwwwwww.

What Keeps Me Going

2009-03-07T02:46:00.003+08:00

In no particular order

Youtube. BOF. Seungri. Bum's smiles. Q. Virtual Tennis. Music. Mysoju. Wikipedia. Dictionary. Dramawiki. Nice Food. Water. Oxygen. TOP. Late nights. Music Bank. Golden Bell Challenge. Money. SS501. KBS. Girlfriends. Family. ME

So tell me, how's life?
1 word: SUCKS.

But as usual, I'm cool, I'm alright.

If you're mine, I'll never make you frown.

2009-02-27T22:42:00.005+08:00

Cause your smile is the most beautiful thing on Earth! :)

Feel free to enlarge to look at my march schedule!

Yellow: Work
Blue: Special Events/Outings
Red: Birthdays
White: No Plans!

As you can see, I'm very free for the month of March. Ask me out okay!

SR, you're still my number one

2009-02-27T04:02:00.000+08:00

His smile......... is to die for!

awwwww I'm melting already......

oh oh i saw 2 cats mating behind my house earlier so i watched them for like 10 seconds before shouting at them and they both ran in different directions. aww sad!

hahaha alright, i shall stop being a psychic at such an unearthly hour and go to bed.

What keeps me from going.

2009-02-25T22:41:00.005+08:00

Each time I see you, my knees go weak and my heart skip a beat, no, two beats, no no, make it three beats. Horrifying images of you haunt me day and night. Thanks to you, I cannot sleep well. You've been appearing in my dreams. No, nightmares. You left a deep impact in my life. But I don't want you in my life. Please, go. Go as far away as you can and leave me alone. I don't want you to stay, leave.

Yea, you, the slimy eeky, disgusting horrifyingly huge gecko (aka house lizard)

Never imagined me to be so dramatic yea? Lizards are my number 1 fear! For a moment I wanted to just call the pesterminator to help to get rid of that lizard but I chose to run away instead. K now I'm like squeezing beside my brother, sleeping on the floor, sleeping anyway as long as not on the sofa just to stay as far away from the 'lizard house' as possible. The thought of going near there just sends shivers down my spine. No one bothers to look for the lizard and kill it for me :(

On a happier note, today marks the last day of hard work! Exams are over and I can start on my video marathon!

I am still reconsidering if I should leave a link for comments here. hmmm.

Let's make love tonight

2009-02-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

More motivations to add on to my list!

Zoo!
Prawning!

I'm a happy girl :D :D :D

"Would you please get out?"

2009-02-21T02:21:00.006+08:00

Since it's a Friday, I shall relax a bit! Met DTSP after macro at marina square. Lunched at Suntec's PH. There's always much to talk when I'm with her. I swear we sat there for almost 2 hours till we were the only customers there for a good 15mins! Those PH guys must be thinking "wtf are these two girls gonna leave?" Caught Benjamin Button as well.

It'll all be over soon. I can watch as many Youtube videos as I want, concentrate on as many dramas as I want, tear over as many movies as I want after this. They shall all be my motivation!

Above all, my number one motivation is still Seungri! :)

Colours, textures and patterns

2009-02-18T19:06:00.008+08:00

I hate doing design rationales!

While ALL of my classmates are mugging hard for the papers, here I am struggling to complete my projects!

k i know my photography skills is nothing as compared to eric's, pcpy's and mandy's! but still, i think i did good :) thanks azie, eric and pcpy for letting me use a couple of your photos :D

and, happy 21st to changmin!

Twinkle twinkle in my eyes

2009-02-16T20:55:00.003+08:00

sometime i wonder what life has in store for us. most of the time, you don't really notice something (or someone) and when they're gone then you would wanna notice them and hope they'll still be around. to put it simply, taking things for granted? no, no. it's more complicated than taking things for granted. get it? it's okay if you don't. "char siew rice seller" is one fine example for me.

the more i see seungri, the more i love him (:
my 'night sickness' is acting up againnnnnn!
k bye, enough of nonsense talk. i need to study baby.

tomorrow, tomorrow!

Oh My Friend.

2009-02-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

PRAWNS YOU KNOW!

HAVE A GOOD DAY AHEAD! :)

Friday the 13th.

2009-02-13T22:59:00.007+08:00

last day of school and last day with 1R04.

sadly, everyone saw the loser side of me on the last week of school. a side which i've always tried to hide and never wanted to show just anyone.

k, i better not post any more solemn posts as someone accused me of being too emotional in my posts saying that i blog stuff like "the sun stole my heart away, etc, etc" (which is so not true!) that person is the very same stupid person who said that "UFOs travel in spaceship" (i still cannot get over it!)

anyway, my internet is very damn irritating. damn bloody slow cannot upload videos properly. spoilt my day because i was in a mood for some dramas and tears. thank god there's still youtube for me on count on!

now, i'm suffering from something called 'night sickness'. okay, i made that up. i don't know why but i always end up sneezing and having a runny nose when the sky turns dark :/

on a super random note, ever since i started listening to k-pop, i don't even listen to english songs anymore! amazing but true.

happy friday the 13th and happy advanced valentine's day!

remember, i'm your number 1! :)

Read Between The Lines.

2009-02-08T22:43:00.004+08:00

I shout out loud, but only the unanswerable sunset is burning bright.

you are the shiniest star in the dark sky

2009-02-06T23:14:00.003+08:00

I'm at a loss for words, I don't know what to say. Seems like I've swallowed every single word I've been wanting to say.

I am sick and tired of every single thing.

The Supernatural

2009-02-02T20:46:00.004+08:00

3 solid hours of supernatural discussion with the most solid, (yet not so solid) balls-less people. and if there's a subject on supernaturalism, we'd definitely top the cohort!

the most happening event of the day goes to the mini arm wrestling competition in class after commskills lesson. turns out that branda is quite a weakling.

teacher"why is it so noisy like a childcare center?"
eric"not childcare center already. it's elderly day care center"

what an eventful day aye.

tomorrow's tuesday and there's RA.
the worse thing is that it's a 9AM class.
1R04, brace yourself up for MORE scoldings okay?

Alcohol? It's more than alcohol, a disease.

2009-01-28T01:13:00.003+08:00

a very (not so) fine day.

it started out rather well. the day ended badly, very.

played catching with my cat in the afternoon, running like a mad girl who's being chased by a mad cat from behind a few rounds round the corridor while holding pack of cat food in my right hand.

showed my mum seung-ri's performance on music bank and to my disappointment, my stepdad said he looked gay. hell no! it's just that he wasn't looking his best during that performance. but that doesn't mean he's gay okay! he's still so hot and sexy to me!

lovely sister with love daughter and not so lovely husband came down all the way from woodlands to help me with my assignment. say awwww.

i was on the verge of going nuts, trying to think of what to do for my colour research. i spent like two days thinking and couldn't come up with anything. oh well, i did thought of a few things but i just couldn't draw, so :(

looking very ugly cause chewing something

well, some male whores with no brains just ruined my almost perfect day.

I'M SO UPSET! :( i'll fill you in soon.

and what the hell? it's already 1.26AM and the people upstairs are still playing mahjong? maniac or what? get a life please!

lazyness won't take me far.

2009-01-25T23:42:00.005+08:00

i'm supposed to update BESA's album in facebook since donkey years ago but i'm forever feeling lazy. moreover, i kinda misplaced my thumbdrive where all the photos are located. and i only managed to retrieve my photobucket account today, so, that explains the lack-of-visuals-updates for the previous posts. hahaha so all along my password's the same as my friendster and facebook, to think i tried xxx and yyy when all along, it was abc. how dumb!

the template that i'm using now is simple yet awesome. not bad okay, there's this border around my pics when i post them up. saves me the hassle of editing my pics at photobucket.

anyway, yesterday was bestfriend's meet up session!
lunched, gossip (as usual), sight-seeing, window shopped!

i swear i won't wanna go town ever again, unless i have a NEED to go there.
and oh, i've finally come to my senses that my hair's ugly. DAMN UGLY :(

and guess whattttttttt.
i've started playing Virtua Tennis once again. Siti N's gonna make a comeback! a round of applause for her please? tyvm.

Love, S.

Lies

2009-01-22T23:32:00.007+08:00

Late at night, you come with the falling rain
My mind begins to stir within the wet memories
I promised myself I would be fine without you
I can't help it

I drowned myself with liquor which
I don't even know how to handle,
Trying to fill my empty heart
A day without you is too long
I pray that I may please forget you
But you know that's all lies

Without you, happiness cannot be found in me
I can't even shed any tears
I don't want to live anymore
I feel like I'm going to go crazy thinking about you
I want to see you, but I can't, it's all over

I'm so sorry, but I love you, I just can't lie
I didn't know, but I know now that I need you
I'm so sorry, but out of anger,
I pushed you away with those piercing words without realising
I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie
Will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

I dedicated my all into this song for you,
By myself, without anyone knowing
I've been left behind all alone, kept roaming within the loneliness
In my pocket is the breakup letter that's wrinkled and folded up
I want to change, I'll laugh everything off from now on

I still can't forget you
No, I don't think I ever will
Even till the day I die
Has the scar I left on you healed?
I'm sorry for not being able to do anything for you

I'm so sorry but I love you, I just can't lie.

2009-01-21T23:21:00.005+08:00

on a heavy note,

last week was hectic
bizstats was so screwed
2 collages to be handed in by next week
i've yet to look for my econs article
5 solid days of holidays, yet NO itinerary boo
commskills paper on friday!
i want to sleep badly

but on a lighter note,

DTSP on saturday!

OMG THAT'S IT? i was thinking damn hard what else could i possibly be looking forward to. seems like there's nothing else. so dtsp better not disappoint me again this time.

and i'm sure nadia's face will make you smile. so, smile :)

and goodnight cause i'm tired.

lots of love from
S.

still alive and kicking!

2009-01-19T02:15:00.004+08:00

yo ma homies, i've got some great vids for ya. check em out! ;D
i spent the whole night watching these over & over again.

many different versions actually but these are the best of the best!

others:
#1
#2
#3
#4
#5

oh trust me, there were at least 897236 others but some are totally crap!

SORRY FOR BEING SUCH A MANIAC!

take care mates.

An (extremely) retarded day in school

2009-01-08T21:09:00.004+08:00

Today is an extremely retarded day. Went to school at 9 in the morning to take PORM paper back then waited retardedly till 10.15 for project consultation. After project consultation, we played hotel626 and was stucked at retarded level seven. stupid retarded mad man. After 1098465476 tries, we gave up. So i watched an episode of 'I Am Sam' on Tiffany's laptop. I showed them my boyfriends on youtube then. Retarded I know. Lunched at ITAS. Retarded Open House was going on and the noise and crowd was madness. Went for retarded Ideation which lasted for only 2 hours and lastly, met retarded DawnTeoShiPei for dinner and shopping for foo's birthday present.

Anyway, there was this retarded conversation going on between Branda, Cheeky and me two days ago.

B"i went to the doctor for the third time in three weeks already"
C"then they should have a membership privilige. 20% off on next visit"
S"no. they should give you stamps. collect ten stamps and visit the doc for free on your eleventh visit"

Retarded, I know.

I had a bet with my mother. I told her that if I can save $2oo by the end of this month, she'll have to give me $50. If I'm left with nothing by the end of the month, I'll have to give her $50 when I get my next month's pay. I CAN DO IT. for the sake of $50, that is. Retarded.

Anyway, I have a long list of things that I NEED to do by tonight. Econ's tutorial and article, foo's birthday card, DTSP's c-maths(though I don't think I'll have any clue what this is all about, I'll try), PORM report, I Am Sam. I'm gonna have fun exploring NYP's retarded website in DTSP's account. hehe

Sorry for the excessive use of retarded.

for real

2009-01-06T17:51:00.008+08:00

i can't seem to focus on anything i do because some hotstuff are distracting me!

and fuckkkkk i forgot my photobucket password and i think i registered it in another email which i can't remember what and i think there's no way i can retrieve it back so fuck :/ goodbye to my 500plus photos in that account :(

fuck la. nothing's going my way. fuck fuck fuck

:(

take only the good memories with you

2009-01-03T00:08:00.003+08:00

it's funny how dawn and i always get engaged in senseless conversations.

I say "if you end 5 you can meet us for dinnerrrrrrrr"
I say "then maybe i can still be back hm by 7pm"
DTSP says "hahahha you nonsense. stupid tv again"
I say "I FORBID YOU TO SCOLD MY TV !"
I say "APOLOGISE NOW"
DTSP says "NONSENSE LA YOU"
I say "APOLOGISE TO MY TV NOWWWWWWWWWW"
DTSP says "NONSENSEEE"
I say "i feel sad for my tv"

AND BRANDA TOO! SHE'S MY LONG LIFE SEX PARTNER.
LOVE YOU BABE.
it's amazing how we can talk about ANYTHING under the sun randomly. i emphasise, ANYTHING.

visuals will be up soon.

your face that i miss looks like the sunset glow

2009-01-02T20:37:00.003+08:00

when you have to leave, i feel sad.
i'm starting to be dependant on you.

please stay, stay with me for as long as you can.

a tinge of jealousy

2008-12-29T22:54:00.001+08:00

this is funny!

I say:
i got new lover already
I say:
his name is changmin
I say:
dont be jealous
DAWNTEOSHIPEI says:
nonsenseeeeeeeeeeee
DAWNTEOSHIPEI says:
who's changmin
DAWNTEOSHIPEI says:
ask him go & die
I say:
i sense someone's jealous
DAWNTEOSHIPEI says:
hahahhahha
DAWNTEOSHIPEI says:
yes im having vinegar now